A reader asked a very good question in response to my last blog...and, as i think many of us are experiencing similar problems, I decided to write an open letter in response.
I'm having difficulties I don't remember having before the pandemic.
I am paralyzed by too much time, too many choices.
I feel untethered and aimless.
Even when I have all the supplies for a project, I still can't get going.
In the evening I feel excited about what I'll do in the morning, but come the morning, I just don't have the creative energy.This isn't like me.
Reading this I had a lot of different thoughts. Some of the problems described often occur occasionally, but many of us are experiencing something like this now as a result of the situation we are all living in right now, especially here in the USA.
We are all under a great deal of stress: the result both of fear of the virus, the uncertainty of the future, and frustration with "them" - i.e. those who could do something about it, and don't...or won't... Other countries have shown the way, we know what to do to alleviate the problem...but we're not doing it. Actually, I find this creates more tension in me than the virus itself. We're not all acting together for the benefit of all, but rather infighting.
I think the first step is to address the very real threat of disease and sickness and assure yourself that you are doing all YOU can to be safe...and for your loved ones. Then say to yourself: I am doing ALL I can, therefore I need to stop reading the news, watching tv or listening to the radio about the virus or politics or global warming etc etc!!
This kind of hot air news with more and more people saying the same thing, but nobody actually doing it is very depressing and it gradually gets you down. Research has definitely shown that listening to bad news is depressing!
Second, be sure you're getting enough exercise, when we're at home or close to home all the time, it's difficult...but lack of exercise definitely affects mood and drive. Again, research shows exercise - any kind - here's me dancing by myself!!! - improves mood.
Six. Initial inertia. So having take all those steps to feel happier and more balanced...how does one overcome that initial inertia of getting moving in the studio? Well, starting to move, overcoming the weight of the inertia requires a little more push than usual..a little more gas!
Don't make the mistake of feeling that you have to wait for excitement and intuition etc etc to carry you gloriously into the task!! many many creative people have written/spoken about how sometimes it's very difficult and uncomfortable to get started. So don't worry about thinking you have to feel tremendous excitement! Also don't ever feel that everything you do has to be a masterpiece.
A good first step is to set a goal, it can be very small, in fact it's better if it is small.
Some writers aim for so many hundred words, composers so many bars (sorry! not drinks...but measures!), or so much harmonization.
A painter might say - I'm going to paint a very small painting every day...and take a full size sheet of paper and divide it up into little squares or rectangles, one for each day. A choreographer - some steps to the first few bars of a classical piece.
As a quilter, I would decide on a project: say a small abstract piece, 16 x 10 made from no more than 12 different shapes fitted together. I would say: okay at 10 am (after the early morning exercise!), I will be in the studio without internet access!! I will roughly sketch out 12 different possible designs and pin them up on the wall, and then I'll have a cup of tea.
yes, you have to push yourself a little to get going...but once you're rolling...you'll usually stick with it.
I would say to myself (when in the middle of constructing a piece pinned out on the design wall): okay, elizabeth, you have to get just one piece sewn into place...you can stop after that, or keep going, but you HAVE to do that one....often (not always of course, but often enough) I'd find I was onto the 3rd piece before I realised.
Seven. The use of time. Many of us are used to schedules and many different activities and for some of us that structure has fallen away because it was externally applied...so now is the time to build one's own structure or time table. It is very helpful to spell it out. When you get up, go to bed, eat. When you exercise, when you meet with a friend - zooming or car port! or gazebo! Time on emails and internet activities. Relaxation time. Studio time. Nature time. Draw out your schedule, try it for a couple of days, then you can adjust it as necessary. The most creative people have the most discipline and structure.
Eight. Accountability. I find this helps a lot - having a critique session with a friend or friends - that's something you can do on Zoom and would be fun, or joining a class where there is a weekly requirement, promising to send somebody a piece for their anniversary.
I hope these ideas help. Remember you are not alone, many of us are feeling this...but there is a lot we can do. I'd love people to write in Comments and describe their own ideas or experience!
if i get more useful cogitations (it does happen from time to time!), I'll add them and put revised at the top so you know I did!
If you have been, thanks for reading!!! Elizabeth
From my readers...some extra possibilities:
1. Start with something easy, like following a pattern...that will help to grease the wheels!
2. Divide the day into segments, so you're flowing forwards always.
3. Leave what you're working on at an enticing point, so you're dying to get back to it!
4. Tell yourself you HAVE to stick with it 20 minutes, or so, before giving up!